Bet you thought I'd say I was back again, heh.
Nah, that's not the case. I just had some things I wanted to say, and felt now was a good time to say it.

Well, I've realized that I don't think I can ever really return to the former life I had here at UBBDev...too many things have happened to make it not possible...I've made some mistakes here that can't be erased, and it seems they couldn't be forgotten either. I tried to come back but...It just can't happen. Not yet, at least, and most likely not ever. It stil baffles me how I could have been so childish, but that's just how things were, I suppose.

I'll still come around here once every so often, but after becoming a laughingstock for the 3 or 4 times I said (and thought) I'd come back here and stay here and then not being able to go through with it, I don't really think I can commit the same time here I used to.

Even just posting this message brings back memories I've repressed..it angers and saddens me how for lack of a better word, stupid, I was back then.

Anyway...I'll bet the great majority of you (especially non-staff) have no idea what I'm talking about, so don't worry about it. All you who are in that category need to know is I made some mistakes here a couple years ago (Wow, it's really been that long...).

So...I hope everyone's doing well. I see there are over 19,000 members...I remember when the huge count we were all waiting for was either 6,7, or 8,000...It was such a big deal, and after that members kept pouring in at increasingly faster rates. It gladdens me that this place is becoming even more of a success and great place than it always was.

As for what I've been doing; it's not much...I've been focusing on school; I'm a senior now in high school. I've brought my grades up, and have a better outlook on the world. My web host never did go back up, sadly, so I never could get a UBB uploaded and work on UBB mods for it.

Anyway, to all those who knew me from the past, I hope you all are doing well. And to those who didn't know me and never heard of me, I wish you all well too, and regret not being able to get to know you.

I tried to think of words of advice, and here's what I came up with:

-Always think before you act. Trust me, if you don't, it will come back to hurt you.
-Work with what you love, for when you love your work, it is no longer work at all.
-Never lose sight of your dreams. (Corny, but true)
-Don't be selfish or arrogant. It's bad. While you may be better at one or two things than some people, you're not better than everyone at everything.
-Don't apologize too much (Hehe)

As I've often said...this isn't a "goodbye", this is a "Until we meet again." I do think I'll come back here someday, but I fear the name "Dark Templar" will always bring memories of the past to mind. Unfortunately, me being the person that I am, I could never go by another name here. That would mean I was ashamed of being me, and I'm not.

If anyone wants to contact me for any reason, I'll be glad to talk to you, whether it be for help with a UBB Hack, Perl Programming in general, tell me about events that have passed, want my opinion on how a graphic or design looks, or just if you want to know more about me...my AIM's AncientSephiroth and my email's still [email protected].

Have a nice day!

[Edit]oh, and a small note, I will be here for a while to read replies [/Edit]

Nice to hear from you Dark Templar. I still remember the times when you, me, and Greg played UT together all the time. Those were good times, hope we can do that again. Well I have been sort of dormat as well. I just thought I would pop in tonight and post some messages and catch up on old times. =P

Strange how things work out, sometimes.
Interesting coincidences, that is.

Ahh DT, Nice to hear from you again.

um...who are you again?

Hi DT. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. It sounds like a few things have turned around for you. I'm glad to hear it.

We're all human, no one is perfect and we all make mistakes. We are all changing and growing each day. We live and learn. Perhaps, as small as we are, as individuals we can make a difference... add something positive. Life goes on.

Don't be a stranger!

I won't. The quarter just ended for school (thank God!) so I've got quite a bit more free time. Who knows, I may convince myself that I can still be around here without developing more mods for UBBs; I just don't have that drive to make UBB mods anymore, not completely sure why. Heck, I still have a half-finished stars/status mod for the later version of the UBB that implemented a control panel ranks type system. If I recall correctly, I finished all the reading and processing coding & HTML, but didn't finish the control panel part.

I need to remember to post my collection of funny graphics I've collected in the past few months, they're pretty good.

Also, a few months ago I finished that Ultima Chat script I was working on for a while; if I ever get a webserver I'll be able to show it off with all its nice features .